Post by dee on Nov 2, 2015 14:44:45 GMT -5
A strange connection , but I was fascinated by slide shows and the magic of cameras as a dee'sorienttated child .
It was not until 15 years ago that i broke through into being otherwise - rather than other-stupid.
I realised that I was severely high frequency deaf as a child and lip reading - being unable to hear the teacher properly and taking down notes before the blackboard was wiped .
Of course , this is common at near 70 years , but others strain to hear and I turn up the lights !! I can still hear accents on TV with the sound off as I watch how words are domed . .
my 1st decent sound system was severely lacking in bass , but there was little distortion which I am very sensitive to , hence my favourite 50-100 mm nominal lens !! LOL.
Actually , the three glitches made it much easier to work out how it all is - each informing on the other , helped enormously by a therapist who explained that perception of a solid 'reality ' is a function of the brain's ability to interpret .
I realised that my mind sees ' snapshots ', whereas most can blur the edges of snapshots , elimination surplus detail , creating a film , I can't .
it also froze at around 10 years [1957] when the hard drive became full and it can't deelete no longer valid files and substitute new .
I can overide intellectually , but it's habitual 'learning' rather than a natural being .
Maybe this is why i am also outside 'common sense ' which is simply the majority expectation and recognition.
i also find taking in an object difficult , as my mind seems to forget or not assimilate easily.
Having several ' same ' or almost same helps as if I am seeing ' Kiev Again ' rather than 'several Kievs
Being behind a camera helped isolate me from conversations and trying to fit in with an expectation of gender and perception experience which I do not comprehend .
It also permits me to edit what is around me , because it's all too confusing and overwhelming when everything is unreal , dislocated , mist like .
it also helped eliminate ' me ' from most photos as this sends my 'miss-aligned' mind into melt down !!! I don't do mirrors as it's almost OK looking out from inside !! LOL.
It was not about the photos as I realised when I found dozens of unprocessed films , although with the advent of digital , those fragments of frozen time help with a dee'sjointed memory with little sense of continuity or placement .
An odd connection to snap shooting and camera collecting perhaps , but very valid for me - especially the continuity of Contax/Kiev from 1935 to 1981 or so ! Perfect !
Thanks for listening .
dee
It was not until 15 years ago that i broke through into being otherwise - rather than other-stupid.
I realised that I was severely high frequency deaf as a child and lip reading - being unable to hear the teacher properly and taking down notes before the blackboard was wiped .
Of course , this is common at near 70 years , but others strain to hear and I turn up the lights !! I can still hear accents on TV with the sound off as I watch how words are domed . .
my 1st decent sound system was severely lacking in bass , but there was little distortion which I am very sensitive to , hence my favourite 50-100 mm nominal lens !! LOL.
Actually , the three glitches made it much easier to work out how it all is - each informing on the other , helped enormously by a therapist who explained that perception of a solid 'reality ' is a function of the brain's ability to interpret .
I realised that my mind sees ' snapshots ', whereas most can blur the edges of snapshots , elimination surplus detail , creating a film , I can't .
it also froze at around 10 years [1957] when the hard drive became full and it can't deelete no longer valid files and substitute new .
I can overide intellectually , but it's habitual 'learning' rather than a natural being .
Maybe this is why i am also outside 'common sense ' which is simply the majority expectation and recognition.
i also find taking in an object difficult , as my mind seems to forget or not assimilate easily.
Having several ' same ' or almost same helps as if I am seeing ' Kiev Again ' rather than 'several Kievs
Being behind a camera helped isolate me from conversations and trying to fit in with an expectation of gender and perception experience which I do not comprehend .
It also permits me to edit what is around me , because it's all too confusing and overwhelming when everything is unreal , dislocated , mist like .
it also helped eliminate ' me ' from most photos as this sends my 'miss-aligned' mind into melt down !!! I don't do mirrors as it's almost OK looking out from inside !! LOL.
It was not about the photos as I realised when I found dozens of unprocessed films , although with the advent of digital , those fragments of frozen time help with a dee'sjointed memory with little sense of continuity or placement .
An odd connection to snap shooting and camera collecting perhaps , but very valid for me - especially the continuity of Contax/Kiev from 1935 to 1981 or so ! Perfect !
Thanks for listening .
dee